冰冷的太陽

My summer holiday has begun for a month already. At the beginning of my vacation, I wanted to look for a job in this summer. I went back to my college and asked for the Career Center counselor to give me a list of job search website. Also, I went to Family Life Center and got a list of job search websites. I used two pieces of paper to search jobs. One month is gone but I still don’t get a job. In fact, on June 22, I went to interview in a company in Wall Street. I almost fill all my information. At last, I should take a test about employee working ruler. I had two opportunities to deal with the test. That is the company’s policy. I should watch video before I took the test. Nevertheless, I didn’t understand what that secretary had. Hence, I didn’t watch video and did the test directly. The result was so bad. That secretary told me that I must watch video first then do the test. At the second time, I did follow that secretary said. I did the test again after I watched the video. The result was much better than the first time. However, that secretary told me that the accurate rate should be 80%, and she showed me to her manager. That manager told me the company policy, that is, each applicant has two opportunities to do the test and must get 80% at least, otherwise, the company can’t hire, if you are still interested in our company, you can apply again after six months.

Honestly, I didn’t feel that disappointed since I believe that I will find another job later. Today I finally realize that looking for a job is so difficult. In these days, I found a lot of jobs on website. Many companies need hire experienced employees, or must have Bachelor Degree. I just have high school diploma, even though there is a profusion of companies hire employees whom have high school diploma but they require must have fluent English speaking and skillful. I know what my disadvantages. My English speaking and listening are not good. Plus, I don’t have too much working experience. At this time, I begin to feel a little frustrated, but not desperate. The emotion of helplessness is occupying my heart. I ask myself whether I can find a job after I graduate or not, and if my goal of working in a high class society is just a day-dream. My heart is very vacant. I don’t know what I can do, and I am not sure how I can fulfill my goal.